Saturday, July 19, 2014

A New Day....

This week, I have been trying very hard to shake myself out of depression doldrums and get on with creativity or productivity...or SOMETHING.  It has been difficult for sure.

With God's help, I am slowly winning this battle. I know He has a plan for the struggles of late. I know it is meant for my good, whatever the result. I just have to trust Him; He has not ever failed me--unlike most humans I know.

So, I'll hang on another day, trying to do better than the last, and pray that the LORD will see I am trying.

Without that Hope, what else is left?

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Because I Can, That's Why....

I don't know, I guess I've felt it coming on for know, that NEED to leave Facebook for calmer climes.  Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy FB for the most part, but the part I don't enjoy is when you have to deal with the people you know in real life.

It sucks.

I try to maintain a positive spin on my page; as a disciple of Christ, I SHOULD do that.  It is difficult when day-after-day, I see the same complaints from the same people I've known for decades -- It gets old.

Oh sure, I know I could just NOT look...or better yet....delete them?  Block them?  You don't know these people.  To "dis" them on a Social Network is equal to taking their last pack of cigarettes, their last nerve pill, or last can of soda.  It's just not done.  Because  of this, I am dusting off this old Blogger account.  It was the only place where I was not followed by the "minions".

Another reason is that I am going through a down season so I need to express myself without feeling I'm creating "drama".  I don't want sympathy, real or fake.  We are facing foreclosure ....again....I'm weary, and the thought of going out into the job market after being absent for nearly two decades scares me to death.  I have some physical issues, so that is going to hurt me...but God has a plan.

I don't know what it is, and He's always on time, but for me, it feels like time is nearly up.